Blasphemy as a Declaration of Life

"I will not serve." These are the words I offer up to any all-powerful divinities in this universe of ours. These words explain most of the directions my spiritual life has taken. In Heathenry, one is friends with the Gods and Goddesses, not a slave. In theistic Satanism, there are many problems one runs into when it comes to service. On the one hand, there are people who believe that Satan is the bringer of complete freedom, in which case it is counterproductive to attempt to serve him. On the other hand, there are those who have a darker view of Satan and to serve him would be possible but it would only be a negation of itself, because in this view, in Satan lies the roots of all negation. In Chaos Magic, the Gods are often made to serve man, rather than the other way around. And in my own personal Mystical Nihilism, it's pointless to offer service to a nothingness with a barely comprehensible form of sentience.

"I will not serve." Why not? Why not bow down before God and confess my sins and dedicate my life to him? So many reasons. The primary reason is.... I am either choosing not to follow an arbitrary and unfair God or else I have no choice at all and my nature is simply to defy. Clarification now. No matter what the greatest theological minds tell you about free will and the human exercise of it, the fact remains that it is incompatible with any form of reason that an all-powerful and all-knowing God could possibly create a being that would not do what he already knew it was going to do. It is NOT POSSIBLE. There is no way anyone can be created without this almighty being knowing exactly every single move and decision they will make. So, he creates a Hell for those who do not do his will or have faith in his son or what have you. But he created them knowing they'd go to that Hell and then alleges that it is part of an overall plan of mercy and love. And couches it in insupportable "free will" theology.  If the extreme Calvinist view of God is the only possible way he could be omnipotent and omniscient, then he is a God I choose not to love because he is, as said above, unfair and arbitrary. On the other hand... if he exists at all and this is all going according to his will, since with him being all powerful, it can't possibly do anything against his will, it is according to his will that I be defiant and I have no choice in the matter because he predestined me to my eternal fate.

The vilest blasphemies and scorn are sometimes used by musical artists in an almost comic fashion, each attempting to outdo the others. But true blasphemy, "I will not serve," "I reject you," "You do not deserve my love," "You will never enslave me to your will," these are shouts of the truly alive. It doesn't even matter if this alleged God exists or not. To utterly and completely refute him is to utterly and completely refute the millions of people who will try to pressure you into obedience, sometimes bringing out the fire and brimstone, sometimes acting like a friend and then buttering you up and then out of nowhere dumping the evangelizing on you.

Liberal Christians frequently do not care if you follow their God or not. They do not take the missionary role quite so seriously. At least the ones I've known. They believe in things I find insane but they temper it with a certain amount of respect for opposing viewpoints. Or, at the very least, they pretend to. But Fundamentalists of all creeds will never be satisfied until their God is the only God left standing. So, blasphemously fall in love with a pagan God or Goddess, take every opportunity to offer your sins to Satan, reject any and all belief systems as hopeless dead ends. But do not serve. To serve is to sacrifice your soul to a being who apparently answers prayers for lost car keys and Super Bowl victories while millions of children go hungry and are afflicted with disease. Don't give me the "It is all part of the tapestry of salvation he is weaving" or any other cheap excuses. If he's there, I demand that he send me to Hell so I don't have to suffer the indignity of knowing I was in the presence of the  architect of so much agony. Satan gets all the bad P.R. but guess what.... God created him too in your theology and knew he'd fall and steal so many from The Lord's flock. Not a very good shepherd who helps nurse the wolf that he will unleash at adulthood on his sheep. "I will not serve."