A bit of an introduction.

It has taken me an eternity to get around to writing a blog because, since I had very little interest in reading other people's blogs, I assumed no one would have an interest in reading one about my inane thoughts. But lately I've had so many inane thoughts, I just had to have a place to let them all out. The fact remains that it is very possible no one (at least no one in their right mind) will have any desire to read my rantings and ravings. But there may be some food for thought amongst the Christ-denouncing, existence-hating, black metal-loving festivals.

In the beginning, there was a really messed up kid. You know the kind: quiet, prone to brooding, made friends more easily with adults than other kids, filled with an inexplicable but palpable self-loathing. Your typical fun-loving child. Without going into my full life's story, let's just say The Entity is diagnosed with a DSM-IV's worth of disorders (possibly even more when we get the DSM-V in 2013.) I take a copious amount of psychiatric pills a day and have spent more than my fair share of time in mental health wards. I live on the pittance Disability pays me every month, making me something of a social leech. I do have a desire to reverse that at some point, I'm just not sure when my head will be on straight enough to really go for it.

Obviously, I'm a rather dark individual. And I plan on using this blog to spew that darkness at every opportunity I get. Most of the time, I will be discussing either spiritual/philosophical things or artistic/musical/literary things. Not all of these things will be high brow or even following along with the darkness theme, as I enjoy things ranging from Deathspell Omega to Fraggle Rock.

This rather sloppily thrown together insight into my mind is just the start. Pretty soon, I plan to have posts up on a number of subjects: The Void, the aesthetics of black metal, the Goddess Freya, what it is like to live on the edge of losing one's mind at all times. (And possibly risking eternal damnation in the bargain, which is a risk worth taking, in my mind.)

Feel free to post comments but I reserve the right to block comments that are from complete morons. And, because this is my blog, it's my definition of what constitutes a moron that reigns supreme. Don't like it, too bad. You are also welcome to correct me when I state an incorrect fact, however, I only bow to verifiable, reliable sources. Don't expect me to thank you for your sage wisdom when you correct me about evolution because the Bible says it was all done in 6 days and 1 day for a nap. If I misquote the Bible, tell me and I will fix it up. But don't expect me to use it as a reputable source. And there's a lot of translations out there, so if I do quote some Biblical gibberish, I will mention what version I am using. If you don't agree with the wording of that particular translation, take it up with the translators, not me.

That's it for the introduction. If I actually manage to keep up with this blog, hopefully someone will find it at least a little interesting or, if not that, good for a chuckle or two. There is something black and dreadful in each of our souls. I plan to let mine speak (most of the time, anyway.)

P.S. I really do not care if you object to me combining notions such as mysticism and nihilism or heathenry and theistic Satanism. As most chaos magicians feel and Peter J. Carroll has frequently expressed, we are not one self, we are a metropolis of selves. I have a self (maybe even a bunch of selves) that are completely devoted to Freya as well as a self or selves who do not even think she exists in any way except as an aspect of my mind. If you can't handle a multiplicity of views and internal contradictions, go read the Bible instead. Oh wait... nevermind. Watch Peanuts cartoons.