Invocation Of Ahriman For Assistance of Az/Jeh/Lilith

Today, I meditated. As I have for the past few nights, I meditated on Set. The original Adversary. I am drawn to his story and his modification from great beloved God to Demon. It seems the God or Gods of an old religion invariably become the Devils and Demons of a new religion. Set took rather well to his role as Adversary and slew Osiris and battled Horus. My meditations have been quests for the rebellious and strong spirit inside, the self within me that can conquer all obstacles, pass any test the Adversary may put to me. I do not feel like I am that person yet, but I am striving for it.

In light of this, what I did after my meditation makes sense. In some strands of Persian Zoroastrianism, Ahriman, their Adversary, suffers a defeat at the hands of the God of "Goodness." He hides in darkness for 3000 years. Nothing his demons tell him can rouse him to action. Until Jeh, identified with Az and Lilith in Luciferian circles, promises him to spawn demons that will destroy the forces of Ahriman's foe. Ahriman rises from his deep despair and kisses Jeh, causing her to menstruate. This is apparently a "curse" that is invented at this point in time, although it is obviously the result of the theology of men who were terrified of women and their natural cycles.

I invoked Ahriman in the darkness, lit by one candle. In the Luciferian way, I invoked him as a part of myself, despite the fact that I believe the Adversary is a real spiritual force. I requested from this inner Ahriman that he send me a Jeh/Az/Lilith to awaken me and my strength and free me from the chains of depression and anxiety I have been held in so long. I felt stronger during the ritual and the rest of the night. I feel I will have to repeat this ritual, with greater and greater intensity, until I finally receive from within myself the gift that I seek. Many people have told me that after all I've gone through, that I am strong. I will admit, I have dealt with things that would break some people. But that's not enough. I don't just want to be strong enough to cope with difficulty. I want to be strong enough to forge my own fate, no matter what stands in my way. This ritual is my attempt to do just that. To awaken the Adversarial Light within myself in such a brilliant blaze, it burns away the darkness of crushed hopes and dead dreams. I will rise again from the darkness. I will wage my battle against the Sheep Gods and the forces aligned against me. I will become my true self. I will conquer and control both the light and the darkness within and be master of my domain, which is my mind and soul.